New Years
Every year around this time I sit and make a ridiculous list of things that I resolve to never do again. Generally this list mocks me on a daily basis for months afterward until I finally give up and throw the stupid list away. Here is a list of things that I stuck with:Oh wait there are none.
Besides making me feel like a failure another thing that my resolutions have in common is that they are ways to "improve" myself. But by who's standards? There is a long list of things about me that I love, things that make me, me. Why do I feel a need to make a list of things to do each year hoping in vain that one of the things on my list will make me the person that people seem to want? Here are truths about me:
I am no Southern Belle
I have opinions that I share freely and openly with anyone who wants them and some that don't
I will step in front of a moving bullet for any member of my family or for my friends
I'm pretty sure I would step in front of a bullet for a stranger
I have great eyes
I am not a morning person
I love to clean, actually it is a fetish that I cannot control sometimes, I have walked into peoples houses for the first time and dusted their ceiling fans
I am a control freak
I have my dad's quick wit and my mother's flare for drama
There is no one and nothing more important to me than family
I can cook my own meals, balance a checkbook and do my own laundry and I have been able to since I was fifteen
Patience is a virtue that I do not posses
I shop way to much
I think I can save the world all by myself and I can't
I like to buy gifts for people with no occasion in mind
I hate surprises when I know they are coming
I can navigate around a big city with ease and grace
I am not always proud of the decisions that I make but I acknowledge that I am the one who got me here, good or bad
So this year I will not make resolutions to lose weight, jog daily or to stop dancing in the coffee bar as though no one can see me. I am a who I am and I will stop making apologies for it. I will keep in mind that wanting people to accept me for me in a courtesy that I need bestow to everyone I meet.
Everyday I grow and I change, I am constantly learning new points of view from people around. In time I may become a person that learns when to voice opinions and when to keep my mouth shut or that will enjoy getting up at six to go jogging but these things will come in there own time and will not be decided but the end of a year or the beginning of the next.
posted by Unknown @ 3:41 PM
1 Comments:
Having known you for years I can say that it is all true. But I would like to add one thing. If it wasn't for the things that make you who you are, we wouldn't love you as much as we do. For all your personality, passion, love, and faults make you the friend I have always counted on through the years. And your ability to open your heart to almost anyone you meet gave me one of my best friends. So I thank you for being who you are and not being afraid to let it show (even when it means you never returning calls or coming by cause it wouldn't be you otherwise). And once again I am so proud of you for taking this leap although I miss you everyday. You are my sister of the heart and I love you.
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